Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Days Going By So Fast - Thank God For Fancy Food!

It feels like forever since I posted something. I don't know...so much has been going on and I am now nervous about trying again.

On top of that, I have been going through a very rough patch emotionally. I don't know if this is the result of the miscarriage and the fallout from that, coupled with the layoff etc. But, for whatever reason, I have been feeling a little funky. In fact, what am I talking about - of course it is! It has been a long, slow process for me to get over losing the dot. I am still very apprehensive about trying again. 

Rather than being nervous for the first three months, I am going to be worried sick for nine if we get pregnant again. I feel like I would want to retire to my bed for the duration! Of course this is ridiculous but, I think after a miscarriage, the relative carefree-ness of pregnancy is GONE.

Since we are now starting to think about trying again after my second period, I am probably feeling a little apprehensive about it. It is nerve-wracking to think about. That is why I think we were a bit lackluster after month one. While friends have jumped straight back into it, I think I felt too shocked to get back there straight away.

Luckily for me I have another diversion for the time being - and it's a good one! Working from home! Oh my, no-one ever told me work could be so great. I love being at home with the girls snoring at my feet and occasionally waking up for a butt scratch.

I love being able to wander over to my office in my sweats and just work! I wish I could lose weight from working because I swear, I would have lost 15 pounds by now! The weather is cool and lovely, there is a bunch of interesting stuff to read about my new biz which I am finding fascinating, and I am so happy to be back on the phone working again!

I went to the Fancy Foods Trade show two weekends' ago. So much fun. I always thought working in fashion or something "glamorous" would be the way I would go. I'm telling you, not on your nelly.

The food industry - particularly the natural food industry - is a total blast. Everyone has come from some teeny tiny idea they had in a garden shed and they are now like grown-up hippies who want to give back. I freakin' love it!

As for my biz well, Teeccino is an herbal coffee, an "alternative" that is super yummy and is good for you. It is my mission to see it mentioned whenever pregnancy, miscarriage, diabetes etc and food and drink choices are brought up. This stuff is magic. Go buy it. 

Or at least check out the Web site www.teeccino.com. More on the CEO and Founder Caroline MacDougall another time. Suffice to say, she is my step-mom-in-law and she is truly a fabulous person.

In fact, maybe I feel a bit better now. 

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Back On The Horse

So this was supposed to be our official trying again period. Except there really hasn't been much trying. I don't know if it is the weather, general apathy or what. We just haven't been all that gung ho for trying this month.

The fabulous doctor C has told me to wait for two periods, but I don't want to, at all. My friend English Lucy didn't wait and I don't see why I should have to either. But, unlike the Christmas story, I guess we really do have to do something.

I got my period at long last which was great. I felt "normal" again after such a long and agonizing few weeks of feeling like a freak which sucked. I hated that I was either bleeding like a lunatic or nothing. Then, we realized that, to try again it would have to be the weekend that just passed.

On New Year's Eve we hosted. It would have been a lot of fun only Z  drank way over the top and felt more than rough the next day. He was writing off the whole day and repeating a mantra of: "I don't feel well" for most of the period when he was awake.

I, on the other hand, cleaned the house, threw away the bottles and packed our case for our "minimoon" in San Luis Obispo.

The Zaius was STILL sick the next day when we set off for the moon and I drove us all the way there. He kind of lay limply against the window looking as wan as a Victorian lady with a mild attack of the vapors.

We went to the Sycamore Hot Springs and recuperated by lying in our giant, sulphur-y-smelling hot-tub, eating and watching The Sopranos Season 5 on the lap top. Heaven. But not heaven enough to get it on much. We are definitely getting old.

Never mind, if our somewhat halfhearted attempts to Get Back On The Horse are not fruitful this month, we have noone to blame but ourselves. And wonderful Doctor C will be more than pleased.