On top of that, I have been going through a very rough patch emotionally. I don't know if this is the result of the miscarriage and the fallout from that, coupled with the layoff etc. But, for whatever reason, I have been feeling a little funky. In fact, what am I talking about - of course it is! It has been a long, slow process for me to get over losing the dot. I am still very apprehensive about trying again.
Rather than being nervous for the first three months, I am going to be worried sick for nine if we get pregnant again. I feel like I would want to retire to my bed for the duration! Of course this is ridiculous but, I think after a miscarriage, the relative carefree-ness of pregnancy is GONE.
Since we are now starting to think about trying again after my second period, I am probably feeling a little apprehensive about it. It is nerve-wracking to think about. That is why I think we were a bit lackluster after month one. While friends have jumped straight back into it, I think I felt too shocked to get back there straight away.
Luckily for me I have another diversion for the time being - and it's a good one! Working from home! Oh my, no-one ever told me work could be so great. I love being at home with the girls snoring at my feet and occasionally waking up for a butt scratch.
I love being able to wander over to my office in my sweats and just work! I wish I could lose weight from working because I swear, I would have lost 15 pounds by now! The weather is cool and lovely, there is a bunch of interesting stuff to read about my new biz which I am finding fascinating, and I am so happy to be back on the phone working again!
I went to the Fancy Foods Trade show two weekends' ago. So much fun. I always thought working in fashion or something "glamorous" would be the way I would go. I'm telling you, not on your nelly.
The food industry - particularly the natural food industry - is a total blast. Everyone has come from some teeny tiny idea they had in a garden shed and they are now like grown-up hippies who want to give back. I freakin' love it!
As for my biz well, Teeccino is an herbal coffee, an "alternative" that is super yummy and is good for you. It is my mission to see it mentioned whenever pregnancy, miscarriage, diabetes etc and food and drink choices are brought up. This stuff is magic. Go buy it.
Or at least check out the Web site www.teeccino.com. More on the CEO and Founder Caroline MacDougall another time. Suffice to say, she is my step-mom-in-law and she is truly a fabulous person.
In fact, maybe I feel a bit better now.